The State of the Union

I only tend to post when things are good.  It's been a while so you do the math.  This is where I'm at:

Up 15 pounds

Got a nice little transfer addiction that I'm battling

Am being honest with myself (finally) about said transfer addiction

Trying to figure out WHY I continue to treat my body this way when I know that I'll only end up with hating myself in the morning

Making an effort to meditate on a daily basis and tell myself how much I love my body/myself even 15 pounds heavier or even if I gain it all back

Have only 1 pair of jeans (baggy *well, not anymore* boyfriend jeans) that fit me

Find myself not wanting to participate in a variety of activities and/or social situations because I've gained some weight (gee, I thought this was never gonna be a problem again after I had surgery)

Joined the YMCA along with my family

Have come to the realization that the real reason I didn't want to be open about my surgery was because I never believed that I was capable of being a successful "after"

Need to have my labs drawn but have not because...come on, guess!  You already know the answer -Because I've gained some weight!

Trying to believe that I have the strength, courage, and determination to make this work for me 

Working on being better about asking for help...I need it

Focusing more on the positive (at least trying to) and seeing the big picture.  Also, focusing on what I want instead of what I don't want

Recommitting myself to vent here once a week because that was my original intent.  It's not a report card.  I'm not being graded

Comments

[Maija Lepore]

I'm having some of the same feeling about gaining- I'm up about 10 and I can't seem to get it off. That's on top of the 18 that I still needed to lose to reach goal!! I'm taking a new med called Abilify and used with my anti depressant is fabulous!!! But it makes me hungry.....

Just put one foot in front of the other each day, and don't be so hard on yourself. People like us have had a rough enough time as it is. Be strong beautiful woman!!!