The 5 day pouch test went well. I learned that I am still able to feel that fullness in my pouch when eating and that I can sustain myself on 800 calories or less (sometimes only 500). I even lost 3 pounds at the end of the 5 days. The problem is that it all went to shit on day 6. I'm really mad at myself. I hate that I still feel like I have no control over my addictions (and that there is more than 1 now). The scale keeps going up and it makes me want to cry, throw a fit, and ultimately punish my body by putting junk in it. I have to get this under control and at least for today, I have a plan. My plan for today is:
I totally understand. Totally. I do not know why I continue to eat when I am not hungry. It's an addiction that we have, and should be treated as such.
Any support you need, I am right here.
Posted by: Kim (Big Girl, Big City) | June 23, 2009 at 03:21 PM
Kim, thanks so much! You are a HUGE inspiration to me. Your support means more than you know.
Posted by: Ammie Not Amy | June 24, 2009 at 08:13 PM