It's true. I suck at blogging. I love reading blogs and even silently curse my favorite bloggers when the page loads and there's nothing new for me to read. I am a blogging hypocrite but I will try, dear readers (all 3 of you), to do better. The last three months have kicked my butt but I'm starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel now.
Let's see...what's new? I weigh 134 (a half pound shy of 80 pounds lost). Not a huge difference since my last post but progress just the same. At my 1 year check up the doc said I am in the "gold star" category which means that I've lost about 85% of my weight. Most patients only lose about 75% so he feels I'm in another league. Although, I kind of feel like that's a sad approach to take. The reality is that most RNY patients will only lose the 75% but wouldn't it be more motivating if docs expected them to lose all of it? Are they setting the bar too low or are they just setting their patients up for garanteed success? In any event, I don't feel like that's good enough for me. I didn't have my guts permanantly rearranged only to make it to the finals and then choose not to finish the race. He says I can do my plastics at any time but I'd like to try to lose a little bit more weight (I only have 12 pounds to go) before I have things hacked off.
What else...? The kids, the dogs, and I spent the bulk of August in Phoenix with my brother-in-law and sister-in-law. It was great spending nearly everyday at their pool just hanging out and relaxing. They took great care of us and I got in some much needed down time. And I wore a bikini every single day. It's true. I've the tan lines to prove it. Now, don't get me wrong. I am not a super model and I do not look like one but for a gal who weighed over 200 pounds at about the same time last year I looked pretty darn good! It was not a string bikini, mind you. I do have some sagging skin issues that had to be creatively covered but overall, I felt very comfortable in my own skin. That in and of itself is a colossal hurdle for me. My new found confidence could have been due to the fact that I was surrounded my family who is very loving and supportive of this new, smaller body I have. Not sure if I'll feel as confident parading around in a bikini when we go to Cabo next month. Stay tuned.
Another thing I've noticed about this new body and new attitude that I have...guys check me out. You know how sometimes you think someone may have been checking you out at the grocery store or the mall but you're not sure? You feel good about it anyway even though you're not sure because hey, let's face it, even if you are happily married it's still nice to feel like you've got it. Now, there is no doubt that men are checking me out. I'm not being a snot but it's true. : ) Rest assured I am a happily married woman but it's so flattering that other people find me attractive. In August we were at a concert and a woman (who was actually kind of creepy) pulled me aside in the ladies restroom to tell me that she and her boyfriend found me very attractive and I would I be interested in "hanging out" with them. At first I wasn't sure she was talking to me and then I couldn't believe what she had just proposed. I'm sure my jaw was on the floor. I lifted up my hand to show her my wedding ring, explained that I was very happily married, and politely declined her offer. She was persistant though and told me that they didn't care if I was married. Again, I politely declined and told her I was the mother of four and got the heck out of there before she tried to harvest my kidney or something. It was pretty crazy. I wasn't sure if I should've been flattered or scared to death by that whole encounter!
I bought my first size eight, a skirt, a couple of weeks back. Haven't been bold enough to try on jeans in an eight yet though. I find skirts to be a little more forgiving and much roomier than pants or jeans.
My hair has started to fall out again. : ( I was a little lazy in the month of August about taking my vitamins and keeping track of my protein. It's not in the super scary stage yet. As soon as I started to notice it I immediately upped my protein by drinking two shakes a day. I've also been religious about taking my vitamins. You can't let up for even a moment!
That's really all there is to report. I will try really hard not to suck at blogging in the future! : )
